Oceans.

Why will no one see Oceans with me?!? It looks amazing! Maybe I'm a loser for still being dedicated to the Disney Channel, but come on people. Kirstie is the only other person who will see it with me, so of course we're on the phone complaining about it. And we make the joke to meet in Waco to go see it. "Hey Kirstie, do you wanna meet in Waco to see Oceans?"

Come on people. Where is your Planet Earth love.

Can you believe there's only 2 weeks left?! Maybe I'm not quite sure how I feel about that. I love feeling like I'm connected to people(we're all humans, we crave that connection to our social world), and it worries me to be away from here. How am I supposed to keep up with my friends when I can barely handle them here, nonetheless when I'm gone all summer? But after this weekend especially, I can see how we're all ready for the summer. Tensions were pretty high, so I think we could all use a break to refresh ourselves, and come back for another year. I've never been a fan of post-summer change, but maybe this one I'll be able to settle with easily. Hopefully.

So why don't you slide.

I'm going to start this new thing, where everyday I learn all the words to a song. Just one song, but one song a day. If anyone knows me, they know I'm a HUGE lyrics/quoting kind of person. I've always given myself credit for being so knowledged(fairly certain this is not a dictionary word) about my music and everything, but how awesome is this? Everyday I'll add even more to my love for music.

So, what's today's song? "Slide" by Goo Goo Dolls.

I've always loved this song. It's a classic, late 90's, early 00's radio song, so I've always been familiar with it. But do you ever notice that only know half the words to maybe every song you know? And even at that, you only know the vowel sounds, just the chorus, or hope that you catch what the actual words are because you never know what they're saying? And end up saying substituting "Your hair glows" for "Nowhere blows?" Well, that's the the purpose of this whole thing is. To eliminate this half-knowledge of music.

"Could you whisper in my ear, the things you wanna feel?"

"She didn't need to find a way to show me."

Why am I already starting a trend that every time I blog I'm in the library?

Yesterday, Matt and I were walking to recital seminar. And while walking, he was like, "Hey, I have a song I want you to listen to." So, while walking, one headphone for each of us, he plays "Annie" by Safetysuit, a song nor band I haven't heard of. And, okay, let me tell you about particular moments life that just get to me. When I listen to a song for a first time, and the song brings out the unspoken twist in me at the moment, and I KNOW it's going to be one of my favorites, I can't even talk about it. It's unbelievable. And this song, GAH. Thank you Matt for adding another song to the soundtrack of my life. This song fits into the category of songs that "I secretly wish guys listen to and think of me/songs that describe the way guys see me." And there is no shame in that. And oh my gosh, it KILLS me the way his voice goes sometimes. When his voice goes high on the words "room," "you," "had," at the ends of lines, it's way too good. It even includes the typical, but BEST part of every song when the music drops and it's just the drums on the chorus right after the bridge, and the music builds to the ending. And, this is a perfect D major song. So, now for for the lyrics.

There was a girl named Annie

She had a very pretty face

And not the way you would think so

Let me see if I can try to explain it

She had a smile that could light up a room

And if she moved it'd be moving you
But it wasn't like a magazine
She was just plain Jane
Her name was Annie

She never looked in the mirror
She never liked what she would see
And even if I try to tell her
She'd never listen to a word I'd say

She always wanted what she never had
But never had what she needed so badly
Someone telling her she was fine
And that's not right
It's why I'm singing

Annie don't be shy
And Annie don't just die
Looks don't make the world go round
But it comes around
And Annie don't be shy
And Annie please don't cry
I always have to stop myself
Cause you're beautiful.

I didn't know if I could tell her
I didn't know if I could make her see
She didn't need to find her beauty
She didn't need to find a way to show me
It took her moments of feeling alive
And made them moments of dying inside
She needed someone to scream her name
To take her pain

That's why I'm screaming

Annie don't be shy
And Annie don't just die
Looks don't make the world go round
But it comes around
And Annie don't be shy
And Annie please don't cry
I always have to stop myself
You're beautiful.

And Annie, you are the one sight my eyes never tire of
It's like I cannot get enough of you
Annie, you are the one song left in my symphony
Like you were made for me

Annie don't be shy
And Annie don't just die
Looks don't make the world go round
But it comes around
And Annie don't be shy
And Annie please don't cry
I always have to stop myself
You're beautiful.

Philippians 4:4

So let's be real, maybe I'm putting off my annotated bibliography. Welp. I've got good news.

I HAVE A SUMMER JOB NOW!!!!!!!

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again, Rejoice!" (Philippians 4:4)

After all of my stress from figuring out what to do this summer, my prayers have finally been answered. I'm so happy to say that I'll be an intern at Alpine Church of Christ in Longview, TX. Especially after the whole camp sadness(and we all know how that went down), I've been on a mission to discover what God wanted me to do instead. Obviously I wasn't supposed to be back at camp, so finding where he wanted me to be, well, drove me banana sandwich. It also really worried me, because well, I want to work with music and theater with my life. (Duh, we all know this.) So is working in ministry this summer really something I'm meant to do? But (praise God for him) Nick Tatum is so awesome. Let's be real, we all know this. But. God put words in him, you have no idea, and after having someone put things in perspective for me, the decision was made.

Here's what my summer will consist of:

• Loving on kids
• Opportunities to start praise teams in the youth group
• A heck of a lot of spiritual growth, who KNOWS how I'll be challenged
• POSSIBILITY OF GOING ON TREK!!!!
• Mission work
• Fellowship

Why aren't I rejoicing even more? Now I can officially say I'm EXCITED and JOYFUL about my summer. (Maybe that's a little unfamiliar for me.)

Rejoice in the Lord. Rejoice.

You Hold Me Now

Currently listening to "You Hold Me Now," by Hillsong.

Can we talk about how much peace this song is bringing me right now?

Needless to say, I've been a bit worked up lately. And as I sit and mull over all the "why's" and "what-if's" that are cutting to my core, the anxiety is taking over. But this song, UWH I can't describe it. It's the power of music, people. And the more I think and think and kill myself over it, the more this song means to me. And I can't stop listening to it, because I know the minute I have to take out my headphones to go to lunch, there's no beautiful music to calm my soul. I was laying on my bed yesterday and fell asleep to it, it was so good. Because as I'm consumed by all of this junk (to say the least), the chorus just GETS to me. "No weeping, no hurt or pain, no suffering, you hold me now. No darkness, no sick or lame, no hiding, you hold me now."

So, for my personal soundtrack that is continuously in my head, it's currently this one.

Marvelous Things

As for the title, it's been stuck in my head all day. It's by Eisley? Anybody?

Currently sitting in the library. Maybe people think I'm weird for the hippie sequin headband.

Welcome to my first blog post. Did I really write that? So lame. But, welcome. I'm actually pretty excited for this. Not that many people will actually read this, maybe, but I find it refreshing, exhilarating. Anybody remember Xanga? Those good 'ole days? Well, I'm glad to get back into the swing of things. You know, this whole blogging deal. Though I'm not quite sure what I'll be using this for. Maybe because I find an online diary sort of neat, maybe it's just another excuse for people to know about my life, I don't know. But to whoever this is, enjoy. Welcome to my thoughts. It's gonna be a bumpy ride.